Merry Christmas?

Three years ago on this day, I would be dressed up in an outfit of red and green with a big smirk on my face.  What am I wearing today? Turquoise.  So I was at mass today and I was listening to the Homily and the priest said that Christmas is the time to make room in our hearts for Christ.  It got me thinking, shouldn’t that be everyday?  Shouldn’t be mindful of Him everyday?  This whole thing just seems to repetitive.

I think I have too high expectations for the holidays and they always end up disappointing and that’s probably why I don’t care for it so much and that I do not wait to open my presents anymore on Christmas and such.  I feel that presents do not define the holiday, it’s just a freakin accessory.

I get brownie points because I am listening to Frank Sinatra Christmas album

Values For the Future

“What values would you like to pass on to the next generation?”

For my Drama 120A class, Development of Theatre, our first homework assignment, besides reading was to submit a picture of ourselves and answer the question above.  After brainstorming all day, I realize I have a lot of values and that they all cannot fit into two paragraphs.

However, I am curious to know what are yours?  Please respond to this, I’m curious! :)

I will post my response later when I complete the assignment.

I Should Write My Own Comedic Monologues

I think it’s about time for me to invest in a recorder or a quick notepad or whatever, whenever I get the inspiration to write something funny of how I view things.  Monologues are just characters talking about their perspective on a particular subject and their “blindedness” to what the audience deem “silly” or “not right” to society.  It’s one thing to write your own monologues, and it’s another in the way you deliver that monologue.  I think it’s also about the little stuff that is exposed, but no one really has the guts to say it because, well you might sound funny.  Regardless of what society things, I have a mind and a voice and I shouldn’t be afraid to share it either as laughter, saddness, etc.

Commercial Christmas

Christmas is…

1) about presents

2) spending the day with your family and loved ones

3) coming/birth of Christ

At least that’s what they advertise in society and the Church.  But what does it really mean?  I think I’ve become numb to Christmas.  It’s the same thing every year.  Christmas Eve at my aunt’s house and spending quality family time and then at midnight, open all the presents with my sister.  Christmas morning, go to mass and lounge around the house, just like any winter break day spent.

So what exactly are you suppose to feel when Christ comes today?  Should not He be here with us every single day?  Or should we not have kept him in our minds every day like we’re suppose to?  This numbness I feel, it’s hard to explain.  I feel numb as in nothing moves me anymore.  As corny as this sounds, I feel like I’m Claire from Heroes, where she can’t feel any pain any more after Skyler got to her.  I don’t know if I long for emotions, but it’s more of this “so what” attitude.

I’ve always liked the idea of giving gifts because it’s that search and goal to find the RIGHT present for that particular person to show how much you know them through your friendships and memories.  I thrill on the joy of seeing their face light up with that particular item.  I guess it’s sort of bad that I expect it back too.  I expect that people who are close to me to put in the same effort of finding the right gift for me rather than gift cards or money.

I prefer the stories and memories that comes along with finding the right gift for a particular friend.  It creates story to share and tell and it helps us  to connect to other people.  I think society has brainwashed many people that Christmas looks nice with a nice Christmas tree and presents underneath it.  It also tells us to spend a lot of money for other people and to spend the day with loved ones.  It’s nice to see all that, but it sort-a makes me sick.  You spend the whole month for this one day that is built up to be something great, but then you think back.  Do you really know what Christmas is about?  No, not really because other people, society, and the church tells us what it’s about, but what are your reasons?  That’s the real answer.